TALKING TO MY EX….

TALKING TO MY EX I heard your voice today How did I feel I think the anger is starting to subside I think the hate is not so hard You are starting to be a human to me Not so much a monster like before I heard your voice today I liked that you called … Continue reading TALKING TO MY EX….

TIME TO SPREAD MY WINGS AND FLY….

TIME TO SPREAD MY WINGS AND FLY What the hell have I been whining about. It has been like two or three weeks that I have been on my pity potty whining like a one year old who lost her pacifier. "I’m lonely!" "I’m afraid of the dark!" "It’s dark, somebody hold me!" Come on … Continue reading TIME TO SPREAD MY WINGS AND FLY….

LONELINESS AND EMPTY NEST SYNDROME!!!

LONELINESS AND EMPTY NEST SYNDROME Today I wrote a poem I was so proud of I showed it to my daughter. I realize I am suffering from “Empty Nest Syndrome” put on top with my marriage collapsing, and abandonment issues…and oh yeah…I just started some weird azz medication for anxiety because I have been stuffing … Continue reading LONELINESS AND EMPTY NEST SYNDROME!!!

MY HAPPY PRINCESS

MY HAPPY PRINCESS I sit as I watch my daughter of 26 primp up and flash out the door And she leaves and she leaves and she leaves How I long for her to stay with me and watch movies How I long for her to want to stay home and just talk And do … Continue reading MY HAPPY PRINCESS

NIGHTS ARE GETTING BETTER!!!

THE NIGHTS ARE GETTING BETTER On a scale from 1 to 10, 10 being the worst, I am rating tonight a good night for me being able to deal with being by myself. What has changed…Nothing…AT ALL! I figured I have been at home for two hours by myself with myself. In my own company. … Continue reading NIGHTS ARE GETTING BETTER!!!

LONELY PEOPLE

COMBATTING LONELINESS DAY 1 Goal was to become visit people, meet people, go around people. In other words stop being a wah wah all by myself at home and be social. I could do that…me social butterfly…I can do that. I went to my mother and visited. I had a good time. So good I … Continue reading LONELY PEOPLE

No One There To Care….

No One There To Care I hug my blankie for comfort It helps me feel safe and secure As I lay in bed I see my silhouette The side of my head up against the wall It reminds me of a small child Early in the morning yet still dark in the night I feel … Continue reading No One There To Care….

WILL I GO CRAZY???

WILL I GO CRAZY??? Here is food for thought...If learning to be alone is so great, cause you know I have been feeling lonely and depressed, being in my apartment alone at night. Everyone says it is good for me..I will get to know myself.. Relish in the solitude, you will get to love the … Continue reading WILL I GO CRAZY???

JUST THERE!

JUST THERE... I came home last night and went to bed by 5:15 p.m. Why? I know why...So I don't have to face the night alone...not good. Ok new game plan. I need to revamp myself...this going wah-wah is not good for my rise to fame. I have to do something thing different. I have … Continue reading JUST THERE!

WHY DO I KEEP FALLING!!!

WHY DO I KEEP FALLING!!! It’s been 6 months since the departure from my married household and I think I am doing good and then feelings of anger come bubbling up again. They wake me up, I get the urge to call him and tell him off, but I know that contacting him will just … Continue reading WHY DO I KEEP FALLING!!!