HOW DID I DESTROY MY MARRIAGE?
I had an interesting post today, but I had been thinking about it also. What was my part in the deterioration of my marriage. You know what they say, it takes two to tango. Like I said previously, I cleanse myself of my sins because I said I would go to counseling to work on whatever I needed to work on to save the marriage and he wouldn’t so hey I was in the right and he was in the wrong in my eyes.
For real, for real, if you ask me, I feel innocent in this. I could be wrong. I probably am wrong, but I feel innocent and that is where I need to sit and reflect on what happened. My husband and I can sit and talk about anything and we can be civil until…we bring up what went wrong with the marriage. My fangs come out and I see red. Right away I start out, well you this and you that and he starts, well why can’t you see your part in this. My part? My part. If I were to call him and say, husband (I am keeping names out to keep the guilty innocent) here is your chance to talk…what WAS my part. Could he put his finger on it and express it into words? I wonder. Men have short memories or worse, not all men, but many, have trouble articulating feelings into words. He would not know what to say and would get frustrated and start raising his voice saying I was just trying to start an argument and he doesn’t want to argue and would remove himself from me….far far away from me.
The only way that I am going to know my part in the dissolution of my marriage is to do some hard core soul searching. That is my next assignment and believe me you will be taken along for the ride on Catalina’s magical Toad Ride!
Question: How did Catalina contribute to the deterioration of her marriage?