HOW DIVORCE AFFECTS YOUR FINANCES!!!
Would I rather have unhappiness and material things…meaning being in an unhappy marriage but having the money to freely buy whatever I wanted. Or live in poverty and be happy by leaving my marriage…Of course my spirit has been lifted since my departure from that miserable marriage.
Now….(Big sigh)ho hum…I live in California and in education, I don’t know what is going on in other states but we are being hit horribly. California’s economy is rising so fast it will make your head spin, gas, groceries… everything, yet funding for education is being cut horribly. I can barely keep up. So financially I am not doing good at all, I am in a pool and the water is barely at the holes of my nose…Ha Ha! And the water keeps going up my nose and I keep having to sneeze it out! Damn wah! Boo Hoo! I’m broke… I know people in Somalia would consider me a millionaire and I don’t want to sound ungrateful, it is about being grateful with what you have…ok let me tell you cause it’s one of those days…
I just got paid, this check goes to pay rent, phone and my credit card that was maxed out in order to buy all the things we needed because when my daughter and I moved in our apartment we had nothing…I am talking even things like spoons, plates…you can imagine…the bill is up there…this is my life now…no nothing after this. I fill up my tank buy a little groceries and pocket a couple $20s in case a birthday comes …oil change…this is my life now…I said…THIS IS MY LIFE NOW!!!
It’s Saturday, I was thinking I would like to Denny’s and have pancakes, no, not in the budget, I was thinking I would like to go to the movies with my mom, no, it’s not in the budget, it’s getting hotter, I was looking on Facebook and they had these summer dresses….oh man they are so cute for $16.99…I would look so hot in them…I would turn heads in this dress!…NO NOT IN THE BUDGET!!!
Do I need to resort to standing on Hollywood and Vine? I have a commitment once sometimes twice a month on the weekends, so I can’t work on weekends and I surely am not going to work all day during the week and then go to work at night…so I guess it is about being grateful with what I have. Man but I remember about the days of going to DSW and just picking out the cutest stillettos and buying them, Jessica Simpson and John Madden were my favorites and I would name my shoes, favorites are my Bob Marley…because they are the color of the Jamaican flag…
Talk about small miracles…my daughter just called and asked me if I wanted to walk around the Farmers Market swap meet. I need vegetables, I get to bond with my daughter, I get some exercise cause I will be walking….it’s going to be a cool Saturday after all!!