HELLFEST 2009 - 19-20-21 juin 2009 Clisson / Dez Fafara - Devildriver


Today I looked at something I wrote a bit ago and thought, hmmm, this is a nice quote, “You attract love if you love yourself, you attract respect if you respect yourself.” Then I realized I was the one who wrote it. There are many things when I look back at, I think, wow did I write that? Ha! Then, there are a lot that I have to go back and correct. Sometimes I am so excited because it just flows out like water. I will wake up from a dead sleep and have the need to write. Those are the times when I need to do grammar and spell checks before I send it off.

That quote inspires me because there was a time that I had no self-respect or self-love and guess what, I accepted garbage. Why not, I was garbage, right? Call me every name in the book, I will beg you not to leave, you can stay out all night, and I will be right there in the morning relieved because you came back to me.

It is a new day, I am nobody’s bitch, ass-hole, or whore now. At the first sign of any of that language coming out of your mouth, you will be talking to the walls. Peacefully, I am gone. Got an itch to go out all night, you better take it all your stuff because your “all night” is going to be permanent. I know what happens if your night needs to be a sleepover. I am nobody’s fool.

I have heard so many women say, why do men always do this to me? No, why do you let men do this to YOU! There is a sign, there is ALWAYS a sign. No call, no show? Loses his temper with you, bad name slips at you? At that first sign of disrespect, that is the end of it. It could only go downhill from there.

I cannot handle yelling. Nobody yell at me, it frightens and intimidates me. When I hear it, I will immediately remove myself from it. It takes two to argue, so if you remove yourself from a yelling person, who are they going to argue with. If I am on the phone and somebody raises their voice I say don’t yell and I instantly hang up. I will not answer for a while because I know that call right after will still be a yelling call. Thank God for text, I will send a text and say, when you are ready to speak calmly, you may call me back and tell me what is bothering you. It is working. I don’t have anyone in my life that speaks in a harsh manner any longer.

I lived the life of ugliness for so many years that I realize that people can live like they do on the Brady Bunch. Serene, peaceful, speak to each other respectfully. I always wanted that. My kids have picked that up and have mates that have that also. This road I am on is a long one but the lessons never cease to amaze me and I am tireless. Come on bring me a new day, I want to learn more and more!!

Author: catalinazamora.com

I am struggling but I am doing it. I started this blog to help myself because I was falling apart and still do sometimes but...hey what doesn't kill us makes us stronger!


  1. Retarded metalheads. Always holding the moral high grounds but almost at times republicate the behaviours of rednecks


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