Here I go again. What’s the matta with you! Like an Italian mama would scold! I have not even ended my marriage and here I am starting a new relationship and wondering why it isn’t going fast enough for me! Aye dios mio! Ok now we have a Mexican mamasita in on the scolding! Before we are done we are going to have a whole melting pot of mama’s scolding me because I am way over my head.

For real peoples I don’t know what is the matter with me. Loneliness, boredom, horniness, yes I said it, I was horny! Women get horny to you know. Maybe I didn’t want to feel anything that I was going to go through because of my divorce and this was the answer, jump into a relationship. It worked. I was swept off my feet by a fabulous man who really kept me busy and entertained me and showed me affection that I hadn’t felt during my marriage. He gave me what I had been craving for 30 years.
I really care for this person but I feel that we are on two very different journeys in life and the longer I continue with him, the more it will hurt when I do end it with him. No matter what it is going to be devastating to be without him because then I will have to face the demons of really being alone.

I always said, aren’t men like jobs, you can’t quit your job without having another job waiting for you. I guess I don’t know how to be alone. I guess I always need to have a man in my life, it has always been that way, I don’t think that is healthy. Stay tuned.

I may take the leap of being REALLY single for the first time in my life….can she do it people…stay tuned!

16 thoughts on “I DON’T KNOW HOW TO BE SINGLE!!!!

  1. I hear ya! My bf and i just broke up and I am already craving to be in a relationship. I just want a GREAT relationship. *sigh* why does it seem so bad to be single?


  2. I’ve decided I am not willing to open my heart again until I know myself well enough to understand what part I played in the demise of my marriage. I NEVER EVER EVER want to experience the kind of pain and devastation I’ve found in the ending of this chapter of my life.
    I loved him fully with all
    My heart and soul.
    If there’s a next time …. It won’t be until I am enthralled with being me. Because only then will I find someone worthy of giving my love to.


  3. Don’t rush it. I did and for the same reasons. I get it… but the best thing you can do is take care of you right now


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