TEACH ME HOW TO BE SINGLE!
The concept of being alone to “find myself” scares me. What exactly am I finding? What does this mean? Am I on the back of a milk carton reported missing? Because last time I check I never lost myself. Does it mean learning how to be in a room with no other people all by yourself. Now it is a test. You are allowed to have a television, radio and best of all phone and computer but no other human with you. You have to be able to withstand being without a man in your life most importantly. No sex, no cuddling, no tender kissing, none of this. Is this what they are talking about?
So if I have male attention I won’t be able to find this something that is lost about myself…am I on the right track? I am hoping someone who has all wisdom is out there reading this. Some guru of the Universe and knows of this special wisdom I will attain if I abstain from male companionship.
How long does it take for this special wisdom to hit me? Is it like a bolt of lightning? Or does it come slowly, and how will I know when I finally get this special wisdom? Is it that kind of thing where you say, oh don’t worry, you’ll know, believe me, you’ll know. Because I am thinking this is something like those Buddist Monks do in Tibbet where they abstain from all Earthly temptations to perfect their souls and is this what I am doing? Will I have to wear some white kind of diaper, burn incense and sit in a yogi position?
I am just asking!