HOME ALONE!!!


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HOME ALONE!!!

By far the hardest challenge you will face with divorce will be the loneliness. I felt I lost my purpose, there was nobody to go home to after work, cook for, talk to, “Hey how was your day”. Nobody to sit and watch television with. But mostly there was nobody to lay down and go to bed with. That was one way of thinking. My sister called me and was telling me about not being able to go to the gym because she had the baby and dinner, and her eldest daughter that and laundry this and husband that and this and that…and so on and so on…..a small smile started growing on my face. As I was driving home that small smile or smirk, if you may, stayed on my face, and a knowing look crossed my eyes. My focus was extreme and deep.

I walked in my apartment and took off my shoes…threw them on the floor and let them fall where they may. I took off my clothes and did the same, let them hit the floor, and let them fall where ever they may, they landed right next to my purse and keys. I grabbed an ice cream bar and thought, eh this is enough dinner, grabbed a pillow and turned on the television to the channel I wanted and plopped on the sofa. Right there in my bra and underwear. I sat eating my ice cream and didn’t do anything I didn’t want to do because guess what…I didn’t have anything I had to do…AND IT FELT AWESOME!!!!

As I got sleepy later on that night I made it a point to make a flying leap into my bed and put my arms out like an eagle and landed right in the middle of my bed…MY BED!!! For a minute I had the wild urge to get up and jump on my bed, should I? I will have to look forward to another day. I snuggled with my soft pillows and comforter…Peace! No stress! Sorry sister!

15 Comments

  1. littlemeuk says:

    its nice to know i might reach a point where i enjoying being by myself.

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    1. Baby it took me 10 months!!!!!

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  2. addercatter says:

    Yay!!! I miss talking to you 😦

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    1. I miss you too babe!!

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  3. Jeff says:

    Congrats. I was sick for two months this winter and during that time came to appreciate and enjoy that I could be as sick, noisy, or lazy as I wanted to be and no one would be bothered or upset. I’ve finally learned to really enjoy the place….with just me.

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    1. It is a treat isn’t it!! Although it would be nice for someone to make me soup and hand feed me!!

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  4. Miss P says:

    it took me time, but I so appreciate that as well now…I think for me it has taken almost three years

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    1. I am sure this was an up, and I will have my downs and I will have my occasional downs…so be it. Progress…not perfection…

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      1. Miss P says:

        progress is awesome, I am going to try and jump on my bed tonight, have not done that yet.

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  5. I am just afraid my frame boards will break then it is back to sleeping on the floor for me!!

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  6. pandiboy says:

    I can’t wait to have a night like this (minus the bra and underwear thing)… 😉

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    1. boxer shorts! boxer shorts! boxer shorts!

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      1. pandiboy says:

        lol…boxer briefs sometimes…depends 😉

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  7. Sunil says:

    Nice to be alone….

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    1. There is finally a peace isn’t there???? I think that will be my next post.

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