What is this I feel in my heart
What is this I feel in my soul
The thrashing of the oceans have stopped
The crushing of waves against the cliffs have ceased
All this I carried within every part of me
Developed by pain, anger, resentment
At times the tides were so high twisting and turning
The great waters pulled me under with such force
Like what I carried inside me , it barely let me breath
As soon as I thought I conquered one trial
Another wave of tribulations came crushing over me
Sucking me under as I fought to regain my step
And I fought to regain my step and I fought to regain my step
And then as I turned the side of the cliff
The foam of the water turn crystal blue like glass
So still, so peaceful, so tranquil was this lagoon
My thighs still trembled from fighting the waves
So I layed back and allowed the drift bring me safely to shore
As the water cascaded rubbed against me so soft like a human hand
The gentle rocking of the water so close to a lullaby
Is this my reward?
This stillness of my mind?
the peace in my heart?
this wondrous feeling?
I don’t want to feel the anguish of the stormy waters anymore
I am done being angry and resentful and bitter and sad
But only I can take myself to the beautiful place of serenity, peace and joy.
It is my decision and it is pushing myself through the pain.
But it is hard, and it takes time
and at times you want to just want to give in
but just know if you keep getting up
It is true paradise….