Another day with this dark weight on my very existence. I barely got out of bed at 3 pm and now as the clock inches to nightfall, my bed calls me. If promises me comfort in an otherwise dark world that has given up on me.
Sleep offers an escape from pain from loneliness.
So to my depression I say good night, thank you for another day robbed from me.
Can I Be Amazing After 50? 
“Sleep offers an escape from pain from loneliness.” This is something that I’ve been saying to myself for months now. Since being laid off from my job in July, I’ve had so much time alone daily, for hours on end. So now I’m used to 9am-11:30am naps, which I hate because it takes away time from my home business. This is especially true because I know that nighttime is an EPIC FAIL. Unless my son is at home in the evenings to cheer me up, I can’t do anything at night. I fall asleep, almost catatonic nightly. The loneliness is just too much. I have ideas of trying to power through it – nighttime exercise, dance, working at night on e-commerce, but of course my motivation is disabled by this nightly monkey on my back. Good luck tonight Catalina ❤
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Oh sweetie, only we truly understand that not monkey, 800 lb gorilla on our back that makes it so hard to do anything….you have your son, that’s good. Get him counseling, educate him early on mental diseases. Son’s are a gift aren’t they!
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I can relate. Small steps that are helping me is to become friendly to the present moment. Not the past. Not the future. The now where no past wrongness or future worry has occurred. Sending loving vibes to you❤️
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