Dear Lord, teach me to be stronger Show me how to say THAT’S ENOUGH! Envelop me with your courage But keep the love in my heart Help me appreciate this life There’s so much to be grateful for Let the past be the past Regrets are like apologies meaningless and unheard Allow me to walkContinue reading “Pray For Valor”
Author Archives: Catalina Zamora
I am struggling but I am doing it. I started this blog to help myself because I was falling apart and still do sometimes but...hey what doesn't kill us makes us stronger!
Lonely Nights Are a Bore
What is wrong with me at night, I can’t find my comfort place I roll this way, I roll that way and wake up all night long Ahh! I get up and move my whole bedroom furniture around My bed placed right up against the wall I fall asleep instantly, my back against the wallContinue reading “Lonely Nights Are a Bore”
Is This My Life, 50ish and Alone
It is four a.m. and I sit here in my cute sweet condo. My room is decorated in Victorian style, I have a zen patio. I have a wonderful job that I have held for 28-years. I have two grown beautiful children who are hard-working, I have a 20-month old grand baby that has aContinue reading “Is This My Life, 50ish and Alone”
ALONE, NEW HOME OWNER, YIKES!
To achieve the American dream, own your own home, that is the ultimate of all goals to achieve. ACHIEVED! Wait, it is not that simple. I am scared out of my wits! I am 55-years-old, I took out a 30-year loan! DAMNNNN, I am in debt and alone and old and and …what was IContinue reading “ALONE, NEW HOME OWNER, YIKES!”
The Day My Momma Left Me
Sunday, …………, my long time friend and I were chatting up a storm as we got out mani-pedi’s. It had been a full day, lunch at Olive Garden, coffee and 7-11, and now this wonderful treatment. We were chatting to the owner, we all shared stories of our mothers. Yes, our mother’s were fresh onContinue reading “The Day My Momma Left Me”
My Mother Came to Me Last Night
Tomorrow marks one week that my mother was taken from my life yet I was not prepared for her to come to me. I cried out into the night, “Momma!” I wailed her name over and over so hard my entire body shook. When I stopped I was told that my mothers love is reachingContinue reading “My Mother Came to Me Last Night”
Letter to My Ex
Do you Remember the first day we met So shy I didn’t want to meet you They took me kicking and screaming Forced me to sit right next to you I kept my head down eyes down Eye contact with a boy? No way But Your persistence fed my void Your popularity fed my linelinessContinue reading “Letter to My Ex”
I’m Not Crazy I Was Abused for 25 Years!
Staying In Abuse Has Destroyed Me I have been seeking treatment after treatment trying to kill this depression because it wants to kill me. Over two decades of psych wards, prescription after prescription and all the side effects and slowly loved ones pull away, why isn’t she better. When I was 18 it started, theContinue reading “I’m Not Crazy I Was Abused for 25 Years!”
You Begin a New Life, Till You Close the Book on your Old Life
If you are unhappy with your life… heck even your very existence, why don’t you stop complaining and change it. You are the writer of your story. But my book is written, girl meets boy, it’s love at first sight, you kiss and kapow! Fireworks shoot off into the sky filling every crevice of EarthContinue reading “You Begin a New Life, Till You Close the Book on your Old Life”
My Ex and I Are Going To Be Grandparents!
There was a time when I refused to attend my family’s Thanksgiving Dinner because I found out that my ex was going. Can you believe it? That was my blood family! It wasn’t my fault that his parents and only brother died, he is the one who wanted to end the marriage so my familyContinue reading “My Ex and I Are Going To Be Grandparents!”
Can I Be Amazing After 50? 