I’m Renting a Room At My Ex’s Home!

Believe it!  I last left off blogging about my depression because for three years I have rent rooms, going back to mom's.  I have been here and there and even stayed random nights at friends houses.  How I longed for that feeling you get after a long day at work and you just kick off … Continue reading I’m Renting a Room At My Ex’s Home!

No Apology, Who Cares I Can Still Heal!

Oh if only he would repent for effing around with that two bit ho from across the street after I dedicated  life to him and put him through college. Just a little remorse would soften the blow. Maybe he spent your life's savings. Or Made you the laughing stock of the family. Or worse he … Continue reading No Apology, Who Cares I Can Still Heal!

Are Your Tears Creating Your Reality?

We heard it time again, we create our reality. Sounds simple, then why do we continue to ruminate on misery? Do we love it, is it comfort, do we even know how to be positive? Today is a new day. As thoughts of self pity came into my head I actually said aloud,"Stop it", and … Continue reading Are Your Tears Creating Your Reality?

COME ON PAIN!!! I AM NOT AFRAID OF YOU!!!!

COME ON PAIN!!! I AM NOT AFRAID OF YOU!!! In my life I have learned that you cannot make someone feel what you want them to feel for you.  I have also learned that when you don’t seem to get the message they can get mean and inhumane about you pursuing them.  Move on girls.  … Continue reading COME ON PAIN!!! I AM NOT AFRAID OF YOU!!!!

WILL YOU EVER FEEL LIKE A STRANGER TO ME?

  I can remember being in so much pain, I can remember seeing no end to the pain. I would think, ok let today be a day I don’t think of you….shit! I didn’t even last a half hour. The tears in the pillows, the breaking down at work and pretending that everything is ok. … Continue reading WILL YOU EVER FEEL LIKE A STRANGER TO ME?

SCREAM THE TRUTH…

SCREAM THE TRUTH TILL IT DOESN’T HURT Suppose your man left you for another woman. Suppose it hurts you to the core. Or maybe he just left you and you are still hurting. Whatever the reason, you are hurting and you want it to stop already. What are we supposed to do to get over … Continue reading SCREAM THE TRUTH…

NO MORE BEING DEPRESSED IN BED!!!

I woke up and didn't have to force myself to be happy, I just felt good. With time I am realizing that the moments of sadness are getting fewer and fewer. When I was with my husband I could not get out of bed. My life was about sleeping my life away. Don’t feel. Don’t … Continue reading NO MORE BEING DEPRESSED IN BED!!!

I NEEDED TO KNOW IF HE EVER LOVED ME!!!

I NEEDED TO KNOW IF HE EVER LOVED ME… I am questioning myself, am I a good person, am I a selfish person, definitely I am a vindicated person, but is it selfish to feel this vindication. Flash back. Because all of you are sitting there thinking, what the heck is this crazy woman talking … Continue reading I NEEDED TO KNOW IF HE EVER LOVED ME!!!

LEAVE THE LOVE IN MY HEART ALONE….

LEAVE THE LOVE IN MY HEART ALONE! I am realizing he will always have part of my heart and I have to realize that that is ok. I have to get to a point where that small part he has in my heart is like a small potted flower and it is ok to nourish … Continue reading LEAVE THE LOVE IN MY HEART ALONE….