251350_4468369234894_1357005607_n[1]San Diego Trip 001


I have discovered it doesn’t matter what you look like, a man will cheat on you or will leave you. I wanted to share my pictures of what I looked like in my marriage when I was depressed. This was what my life was destined to be like. Loving a man that could not love me back was what life was all about, it is no wonder that I shoved everything I could in to my face and found solace in food. And the second picture is me now. I am happy now.

Motivating Yourself


Motivating Yourself !! 2.27.13

This morning I woke up at 5 am, looked at the clock and pulled the blanket back over my head. I had my sponge Bob Square Pants jammies with the feet in them and just wanted to stay in my comfy bed. I don’t wanna face today, I thought. This had become my new routine.

Know what I used to do. Get up at 5 am like a bullet, crank up the Dixie Chicks or Adele and dance around the house getting ready for work and you would think I was getting ready for the prom the way I was curling my hair and putting on the war paint. Sometimes I would even take a lap around the block for exercise. When I left my apartment in the morning, I looked like a million bucks if I do say so myself!

As Ricky Ricardo used to say, What Happened??, I’ll tell you what happened. I lost my motivation, I got lazy, lost that gusto…I had become blah! I am a grown ass woman, mommy isn’t there to tell me when to get up, so I can make my own rule, OK!
Now, I go in at 8:30 am. I live close to my work so I could seriously lie in bed till 8 and shower, shampoo and dress in 20 minutes and haul my butt to work running in no make-up, hair in a pony-tail looking like a felt, BLAH! A painting with no color. I was just there.

Somewhere down the line I forgot, I Catalina, determined how I feel by my attitude, and lately my attitude stunk. I got lazy and broke my healthy routine. I needed to start doing things I didn’t want to do. So this morning at 5 am I jumped up and forced myself and went for that walk. Boy was I glad I went, cause I was greeted by that glorious beautiful sun. I don’t know where you are, but I am in California and it is beautiful here. Man I swear God was with me. Both exercise and the Sun are antidepressants, why dive into pills when you can do it naturally.

Start your day earlier in the morning, make up your mind it’s going to be a fabulous day, take that morning walk, look up in the sky and give thanks to God (if you are spiritual).

The way you start your morning will affects your day so make it like Sponge Bob Square Pants would say, a Happy Happy Joy Joy Day!