WILL YOU EVER FEEL LIKE A STRANGER TO ME?

  I can remember being in so much pain, I can remember seeing no end to the pain. I would think, ok let today be a day I don’t think of you….shit! I didn’t even last a half hour. The tears in the pillows, the breaking down at work and pretending that everything is ok.Continue reading “WILL YOU EVER FEEL LIKE A STRANGER TO ME?”

PEACE OF MIND…PEACE IN YOUR HEART

I can be on the treadmill and close my eyes and reach a point of stillness, of silence and drown out the clinging of the weights, the booming of the music.  A place of peace and serenity. A place I never have been before. A year and a half ago I was forced out of theContinue reading “PEACE OF MIND…PEACE IN YOUR HEART”

LEARNING TO SLEEP ALONE

LEARNING TO SLEEP ALONE   One of the hardest parts of learning to be alone was not having a body next to mine.  Don’t get me wrong, there for a long time my husband and I were sleeping in the same bed and accidentally our feet would touch and it was like Kryptonite.  I wouldContinue reading “LEARNING TO SLEEP ALONE”

LEARNING TO EAT ALONE

Learning to Eat Alone I was extra hungry tonight. What a crazy day, it was so crazy I missed lunch, for me that is CRAZY because me missing a meal? Yeah right. Nobody is going to believe that. I grew up in a big Latin family and cooking is in my blood and it wasContinue reading “LEARNING TO EAT ALONE”

SCREAM THE TRUTH…

SCREAM THE TRUTH TILL IT DOESN’T HURT Suppose your man left you for another woman. Suppose it hurts you to the core. Or maybe he just left you and you are still hurting. Whatever the reason, you are hurting and you want it to stop already. What are we supposed to do to get overContinue reading “SCREAM THE TRUTH…”

I CHOOSE TO STOP HATING MY HUSBAND!

I CHOOSE TO STOP HATING MY HUSBAND! As I look back at my blogs, they are kinda bashing on my ex aren’t they. But that is ok, because he really was not a nice person to me. Why is it that everyone that knows him thinks he is the nicest person in the world? CouldContinue reading “I CHOOSE TO STOP HATING MY HUSBAND!”

PRAY MY PAIN AWAY…

PRAY THE PAIN AWAY It’s ok for your heart to ache sometimes This is part of the grieving process Without pain how could we compare joy So I sit here with this pain and I let it settle And I don’t think of it as the end of the world Instead it is just aContinue reading “PRAY MY PAIN AWAY…”

CONTINUE TO TRUDGE DOWN THE ROAD…

CONTINUE TO TRUDGE DOWN THE ROAD… The day turned black for the sun was gone The moon gleamed high in the sky It was an honest coincidence that I was by his home The eerie moon was a reminder Of my lonely place awaiting me Yet the comfort of our my old home Was onlyContinue reading “CONTINUE TO TRUDGE DOWN THE ROAD…”

NO MORE BEING DEPRESSED IN BED!!!

I woke up and didn’t have to force myself to be happy, I just felt good. With time I am realizing that the moments of sadness are getting fewer and fewer. When I was with my husband I could not get out of bed. My life was about sleeping my life away. Don’t feel. Don’tContinue reading “NO MORE BEING DEPRESSED IN BED!!!”

I NEEDED TO KNOW IF HE EVER LOVED ME!!!

I NEEDED TO KNOW IF HE EVER LOVED ME… I am questioning myself, am I a good person, am I a selfish person, definitely I am a vindicated person, but is it selfish to feel this vindication. Flash back. Because all of you are sitting there thinking, what the heck is this crazy woman talkingContinue reading “I NEEDED TO KNOW IF HE EVER LOVED ME!!!”