I’m Not Crazy I Was Abused for 25 Years!

Staying In Abuse Has Destroyed Me I have been seeking treatment after treatment trying to kill this depression because it wants to kill me. Over two decades of psych wards, prescription after prescription and all the side effects and slowly loved ones pull away, why isn't she better. When I was 18 it started, the … Continue reading I’m Not Crazy I Was Abused for 25 Years!

Watching Life Go By As a Depressed Mother

My daughter wanted me by her side every moment of her free time. We were thr best of friends...so I thought. She was proud of all the things I've went through in life because I did it being a depressed person...that was then. We had each others backs and were each others biggest cheerleaders...when did … Continue reading Watching Life Go By As a Depressed Mother

Good Night Depression

Another day with this dark weight on my very existence. I barely got out of bed at 3 pm and now as the clock inches to nightfall, my bed calls me. If promises me comfort in an otherwise dark world that has given up on me. Sleep offers an escape from pain from loneliness. So … Continue reading Good Night Depression

What Depression Has Taken From Me

Depression, thank you very much for invading my life and just taking it over. You are like a mobster that breaks in a house and just starts ripping everything you find. You flip over couches, spray paint over any beautiful paintings you see, break all the beautiful china wear you find. Depression you have robbed … Continue reading What Depression Has Taken From Me

I Am A Mother With Depression

If there would be a law, should it be parenting with depression is prohibited? A child looks at their parents for modeling, for motivation. They have prohibited gay people from adopting, yet wouldn't two loving happy people parent better than a mother who often could not get out of bed, who couldn't find the energy … Continue reading I Am A Mother With Depression

Road Trip To Self Love…Buddhism

It has been one week that I (ran away from home) to find my brave. I have battled the frigid cold, wind, lived on Ensure for a couple of days. I had to find a thrift store because I packed like it was Summer and silly me, it is still Winter in San Bernardino. But … Continue reading Road Trip To Self Love…Buddhism

The Support You Need is Out There…

I packed my bags, and jus started driving to destination unknown. I got mad, I have been a caterpillar way too long. It's time to break out of this cocoon that threatened to suffocate me. Time to do what feels uncomfortable, drive, venture out, and alone. Visions of me up in the mountains danced around … Continue reading The Support You Need is Out There…

Do You Tell A New Date You Have Depression?

To tell or not to tell, that is the question. If you suffer from Depression, Bipolar or other diseases of the mind, do you tell someone you want to date? If so... When is the right time to tell them? Before you date? On the first date? Or when you feel you know them better? … Continue reading Do You Tell A New Date You Have Depression?

Just Make It One More Night

Sometimes the darkness in your mind Sometimes the piercing in your heart Sometimes it's just much too much   Daydreams of eternal peace Eternal rest Free from grief Free to breathe Heaven signifies That God's arms Become my home For evermore   Stop Stop Stop   Don't listen to the lies!   The Sun is … Continue reading Just Make It One More Night

Alone With My Thinking

Alone with my thinking darkness stretches all nightlong This is how my evenings stretch but I continue to be strong   My shell looks unscathed in one solid piece with no flaws but if my skin were transparent the world would see it all   Crimson red from rips in my heart tear ducts shriveled … Continue reading Alone With My Thinking