My Mother Came to Me Last Night

Tomorrow marks one week that my mother was taken from my life yet I was not prepared for her to come to me. I cried out into the night, “Momma!” I wailed her name over and over so hard my entire body shook. When I stopped I was told that my mothers love is reachingContinue reading “My Mother Came to Me Last Night”

I’m Not Crazy I Was Abused for 25 Years!

Staying In Abuse Has Destroyed Me I have been seeking treatment after treatment trying to kill this depression because it wants to kill me. Over two decades of psych wards, prescription after prescription and all the side effects and slowly loved ones pull away, why isn’t she better. When I was 18 it started, theContinue reading “I’m Not Crazy I Was Abused for 25 Years!”

My Ex and I Are Going To Be Grandparents!

There was a time when I refused to attend my family’s Thanksgiving Dinner because I found out that my ex was going. Can you believe it? That was my blood family! It wasn’t my fault that his parents and only brother died, he is the one who wanted to end the marriage so my familyContinue reading “My Ex and I Are Going To Be Grandparents!”

Break-ups and Depression

Separating from my husband made me face an ongoing issue I have struggled with since I can remember,I have depression. The kind of depression Robin Williams suffered from. Going through a devastating challenge like realizing my husband was now in love with someone else, didn’t work great with this depression. Life was never easy forContinue reading “Break-ups and Depression”

When Will You Ever Heal?

What happened to the girl that I was 4 years ago? I was on top of the world, shooting out blogs, feeling empowered, being independent. Four years later I find myself renting a room from my ex. Yeah, I know laugh, I would too if it weren’t so darn humiliating.  How did it get toContinue reading “When Will You Ever Heal?”

Waiting To Heal From Divorce?

Waiting To Heal From Divorce? Do you find yourself asking when will I stop hurting? I asked for 30 years, I still catch myself asking. I find myself irritated, why does it bug me that he is dating when he seems like life is peaches and orgasms. Why was he able to move on soContinue reading “Waiting To Heal From Divorce?”

I’m Renting a Room At My Ex’s Home!

Believe it!  I last left off blogging about my depression because for three years I have rent rooms, going back to mom’s.  I have been here and there and even stayed random nights at friends houses.  How I longed for that feeling you get after a long day at work and you just kick offContinue reading “I’m Renting a Room At My Ex’s Home!”

No Apology, Who Cares I Can Still Heal!

Oh if only he would repent for effing around with that two bit ho from across the street after I dedicated  life to him and put him through college. Just a little remorse would soften the blow. Maybe he spent your life’s savings. Or Made you the laughing stock of the family. Or worse heContinue reading “No Apology, Who Cares I Can Still Heal!”