PRAY MY PAIN AWAY…

PRAY THE PAIN AWAY It’s ok for your heart to ache sometimes This is part of the grieving process Without pain how could we compare joy So I sit here with this pain and I let it settle And I don’t think of it as the end of the world Instead it is just aContinue reading “PRAY MY PAIN AWAY…”

CLIMBING FOR LOVE…

  Oh the webs we weave, ok! My quest for love continues. It is a journey that I continue to climb the highest mountain in pursuit of. The mountain I left didn’t have it, my husband. I climbed it all the way to the top. Oh, what a jagged, rocky high mountain it was. FullContinue reading “CLIMBING FOR LOVE…”

TEACH ME HOW TO BE SINGLE!

I was just told, in order to properly heal, I have to mourn the end of one relationship before starting a new one. One step further, for up to six months! The concept of being alone is this to “find myself”. What exactly am I finding? What does this mean? Am I on the backContinue reading “TEACH ME HOW TO BE SINGLE!”

THIS LOVE OF MINE…

THIS LOVE OF MINE… The beauty of me is my loving heart There is nothing stronger about me My love is so powerful and so pure I care to the depths of my soul God gave me such an incredible gift Just approach me and you will be pulled in If asked, this is myContinue reading “THIS LOVE OF MINE…”

I DON’T KNOW HOW TO BE SINGLE!!!!

I DON’T KNOW HOW TO BE SINGLE!!! Here I go again. What’s the matta with you! Like an Italian mama would scold! I have not even ended my marriage and here I am starting a new relationship and wondering why it isn’t going fast enough for me! Aye dios mio! Ok now we have aContinue reading “I DON’T KNOW HOW TO BE SINGLE!!!!”

FATHER’S DAY DOESN’T INCLUDE ME ANYMORE…

FATHER’S DAY DOESN’T INCLUDE ME ANYMORE… It was Father’s Day. I didn’t like it. I felt left out. I felt prepared and everything. I mean come on it isn’t like my ex is “my” father or anything. Not to mention I had the best Mother’s Day ever. I knew it was coming too because theContinue reading “FATHER’S DAY DOESN’T INCLUDE ME ANYMORE…”

CONTINUE TO TRUDGE DOWN THE ROAD…

CONTINUE TO TRUDGE DOWN THE ROAD… The day turned black for the sun was gone The moon gleamed high in the sky It was an honest coincidence that I was by his home The eerie moon was a reminder Of my lonely place awaiting me Yet the comfort of our my old home Was onlyContinue reading “CONTINUE TO TRUDGE DOWN THE ROAD…”

NO MORE BEING DEPRESSED IN BED!!!

I woke up and didn’t have to force myself to be happy, I just felt good. With time I am realizing that the moments of sadness are getting fewer and fewer. When I was with my husband I could not get out of bed. My life was about sleeping my life away. Don’t feel. Don’tContinue reading “NO MORE BEING DEPRESSED IN BED!!!”

I NEEDED TO KNOW IF HE EVER LOVED ME!!!

I NEEDED TO KNOW IF HE EVER LOVED ME… I am questioning myself, am I a good person, am I a selfish person, definitely I am a vindicated person, but is it selfish to feel this vindication. Flash back. Because all of you are sitting there thinking, what the heck is this crazy woman talkingContinue reading “I NEEDED TO KNOW IF HE EVER LOVED ME!!!”

NOBODY LAUGHS AT ME ANYMORE!!!

NOBODY LAUGHS AT ME ANYMORE!!! I always waited for my husband to approve of me to make me feel beautiful, it never came. Therefore I was never beautiful. Instead he cheated on me, why would he cheat on me? If I were more beautiful he wouldn’t cheat on me, huh? If only I had aContinue reading “NOBODY LAUGHS AT ME ANYMORE!!!”