LONELINESS AND EMPTY NEST SYNDROME!!!

LONELINESS AND EMPTY NEST SYNDROME Today I wrote a poem I was so proud of I showed it to my daughter. I realize I am suffering from “Empty Nest Syndrome” put on top with my marriage collapsing, and abandonment issues…and oh yeah…I just started some weird azz medication for anxiety because I have been stuffingContinue reading “LONELINESS AND EMPTY NEST SYNDROME!!!”

MY HAPPY PRINCESS

MY HAPPY PRINCESS I sit as I watch my daughter of 26 primp up and flash out the door And she leaves and she leaves and she leaves How I long for her to stay with me and watch movies How I long for her to want to stay home and just talk And doContinue reading “MY HAPPY PRINCESS”

WILL I GO CRAZY???

WILL I GO CRAZY??? Here is food for thought…If learning to be alone is so great, cause you know I have been feeling lonely and depressed, being in my apartment alone at night. Everyone says it is good for me..I will get to know myself.. Relish in the solitude, you will get to love theContinue reading “WILL I GO CRAZY???”

WHY DO I KEEP FALLING!!!

WHY DO I KEEP FALLING!!! It’s been 6 months since the departure from my married household and I think I am doing good and then feelings of anger come bubbling up again. They wake me up, I get the urge to call him and tell him off, but I know that contacting him will justContinue reading “WHY DO I KEEP FALLING!!!”

Divorce Support Group…

Divorce Support Groups I have a confession to make, now everyone grab onto your seats cause this is a big one (the room silences in anticipation). I am not Super Woman. I KNOW! Believe me I was just as surprised as all of you. So I am taking off my cape and hanging it inContinue reading “Divorce Support Group…”

My Family Portrait

My Family Portrait Without a Husband My most prized possession as a single person I keep this close to me here at my job It’s a small Christmas portrait of my children and I They had asked me what did I want this year I said if I can’t have this give me nothing atContinue reading “My Family Portrait”

Validation of a Broken Marriage…

Validation of a Broken Marriage The words hit me in the pit of my stomach… You never want to take responsibility for your part This is my husband speaking about the break-up of our marriage This rage engulfs me like fire in my soul My part? How short his memory is, I didn’t ask forContinue reading “Validation of a Broken Marriage…”

ANXIETY AND DIVORCE!!!

ANXIETY AND DIVORCE Lately I have been noticing my heart rate seeming a little harder. You know like when you are hiding under your bed with a bloody knife in your hand and Freddy Krueger is slowly walks in the room…you see his feet…you dare not even breathe cause he might hear you and youContinue reading “ANXIETY AND DIVORCE!!!”

I TOLD MY HUSBAND OF MY NEW RELATIONSHIP!!

I TOLD MY HUSBAND OF MY NEW RELATIONSHIP What did I do…I was at a party yesterday and I was reminded of the humiliating things I used to do to try to make my husband stay with me. I was humiliated because it was being told in front of many people including my son andContinue reading “I TOLD MY HUSBAND OF MY NEW RELATIONSHIP!!”

HOW DID I DESTROY MY MARRIAGE?

HOW DID I DESTROY MY MARRIAGE? I had an interesting post today, but I had been thinking about it also. What was my part in the deterioration of my marriage. You know what they say, it takes two to tango. Like I said previously, I cleanse myself of my sins because I said I wouldContinue reading “HOW DID I DESTROY MY MARRIAGE?”