TEACH ME HOW TO BE SINGLE!

I was just told, in order to properly heal, I have to mourn the end of one relationship before starting a new one. One step further, for up to six months! The concept of being alone is this to “find myself”. What exactly am I finding? What does this mean? Am I on the backContinue reading “TEACH ME HOW TO BE SINGLE!”

CONTINUE TO TRUDGE DOWN THE ROAD…

CONTINUE TO TRUDGE DOWN THE ROAD… The day turned black for the sun was gone The moon gleamed high in the sky It was an honest coincidence that I was by his home The eerie moon was a reminder Of my lonely place awaiting me Yet the comfort of our my old home Was onlyContinue reading “CONTINUE TO TRUDGE DOWN THE ROAD…”

NO MORE BEING DEPRESSED IN BED!!!

I woke up and didn’t have to force myself to be happy, I just felt good. With time I am realizing that the moments of sadness are getting fewer and fewer. When I was with my husband I could not get out of bed. My life was about sleeping my life away. Don’t feel. Don’tContinue reading “NO MORE BEING DEPRESSED IN BED!!!”

I NEEDED TO KNOW IF HE EVER LOVED ME!!!

I NEEDED TO KNOW IF HE EVER LOVED ME… I am questioning myself, am I a good person, am I a selfish person, definitely I am a vindicated person, but is it selfish to feel this vindication. Flash back. Because all of you are sitting there thinking, what the heck is this crazy woman talkingContinue reading “I NEEDED TO KNOW IF HE EVER LOVED ME!!!”

NOBODY LAUGHS AT ME ANYMORE!!!

NOBODY LAUGHS AT ME ANYMORE!!! I always waited for my husband to approve of me to make me feel beautiful, it never came. Therefore I was never beautiful. Instead he cheated on me, why would he cheat on me? If I were more beautiful he wouldn’t cheat on me, huh? If only I had aContinue reading “NOBODY LAUGHS AT ME ANYMORE!!!”

LEAVE THE LOVE IN MY HEART ALONE….

LEAVE THE LOVE IN MY HEART ALONE! I am realizing he will always have part of my heart and I have to realize that that is ok. I have to get to a point where that small part he has in my heart is like a small potted flower and it is ok to nourishContinue reading “LEAVE THE LOVE IN MY HEART ALONE….”

THIS BROKEN HEART OF MINE!!!

THIS BROKEN HEART OF MINE!!! This heart of mine For so long it has been injured For so long it has been mistreated For so long it has been battered My poor heart my poor heart And now they tell it forgive them It was ok that they kicked you around It was ok thatContinue reading “THIS BROKEN HEART OF MINE!!!”

WHO SAYS GOOD THINGS DON’T HAPPEN TO GOOD PEOPLE!!!

WHO SAYS GOOD THINGS DON’T HAPPEN TO GOOD PEOPLE!! When it looked like my entire pension would be wiped out because my husband committed fraud against the IRS. They told to give it to God. I was told to hurry and divorce my husband because my pension was growing and boy wouldn’t the IRS loveContinue reading “WHO SAYS GOOD THINGS DON’T HAPPEN TO GOOD PEOPLE!!!”

DO YOU WANT A BETTER LIFE….I DO!!!

DO YOU WANT A BETTER LIFE…I DO! I feel this as sort as a testimony. I started this blog as sort as a place where I vented against my ugly monster husband. Yesterday when I saw him, I gave him a sincere hug. I am realizing something miraculous happening in my life people that IContinue reading “DO YOU WANT A BETTER LIFE….I DO!!!”